I rocked up to see Einstuerzende Neubauten about two hours early. I had finished work around 3pm and just couldn’t wait to get to Newtown much longer. I walked around the theater, being the only one who had shown up thus far, to try and hear if they were inside already, and when I heard them rehearsing ‘Susej’ and ‘Haus der Luege’ through the door I had tears in my eyes, because my absolute favourite band was just behind the door next to me. It was becoming more and more apparent that it was not some crazy dream.
Two hours later, I, along with two other hardcore Neubauten fans whom I had made an acquaintanceship with, finally got into the theater. Because of the strange low turn up of people, the three of us managed to get a stop RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE STAGE. We managed to lean on the bars that separated us by about a meter from the stage where Neubauten would play. Needless to say, we were thrilled and proud of our punctuality.
Neubauten came on about two hours after we had arrived. Mick Harvey filled about half an hour with some awesome material and a brilliant rendition of ‘Bethelridge’ that I regret not recording now. Then after a loooooong time of waiting for the perfect moment to finally begin, me and my fellow Neubauten fans recognised a shadowy figure in a very familiar attire standing at the left side of the curtains, and finally Blixa Bargeld walked onstage. He was this huge, towering man, and despite my short sighted eyes, I could see his blue eyes ridiculously clearly. The crowd, which had started growing to maximum capacity around Mick Harvey’s slot, went nuts when he arrived. Everyone adored Blixa, and he knew we all did. He knew how to charm the audience, even if he was simply putting on his glasses and raising an eyebrow at us. Everyone else was perfect too. We all loved Hacke, Unruh, Moser and Arbeit, and of course Ash Wednesday. Everyone was just perfect and there was almost not a single mistake throughout the whole set. There was one time Blixa was off beat but that was kind of bound to happen. The set mainly consisted of new material, such as ‘Redukt’, ‘Let’s do it a dada’. ‘Von Wegen’ and others. They played ‘Haus der Luege’ of course, considering ti is one of their more popular songs. I would have loved to hear Armenia instead, but I guess it wouldn’t have been as well received by the half drunken Newtown crowd. During ‘Silence is sexy’ Blixa smoked a herbal cigarette which smelled a lot like weed (the smell of which was stuck in my hair through most of the night), and after the song finished he tossed the cigarette right in front of where me and my Neubauten buddies were standing. I half expected one of us to climb over the gate and grab the cigarette, but no one had the balls to.
They played my absolute favourite song ‘Sabrina’, and they played it ridiculously perfectly. That song has such significant history for me. When my depression was at its worst, I would listen to this song and it was eerily comforting, like receiving a hug from a lonely monster. The song still fills me with such comfort and calmness today, and when they played it I couldn’t help but start crying like an idiot. Seeing my favourite band and the person who pretty much saved my life play this song that has given me such comfort during horrible times made me so happy to be alive at that point, and while the tears started rolling down my eyes I mentally thanked them all a million times.
Though they had only played for about an hour and a half, it was an amazing night, and I doubt I am going to forget it for a loooooong time. Thank you Einstuerzende Neubauten for a wonderful experience and thank you even more for helping me get through those horrible moments and moving me forward again. I can’t thank all of you enough.